being honest with myself about being partway male aligned and liking boys is actually super liberating. i’m honestly probably like 80/20 into femme presenting people versus masc presenting people, give or take, but i still identify as mlm, because that’s what i am, as much as a cis dude who is bisexual can adopt the … Continue reading
I’m writing this just to process a little bit what’s happening with me, and to document it for posterity, I guess. Read/comment if you’d like (: One of the things I’ve had to come to terms with in the last few years is my transness. Recently, I’m realizing it’s more complicated than originally anticipated. I … Continue reading My gender and sexuality development
anyway it’s national coming out day, apparently. totally snuck up on me.good timing, though. so i’ll take this opportunity to say i’m pretty sure i’m pansexual? leaning 90% toward women and femme presenting people but like. testosterone is a hell of a drug. i’m realizing i’m into dudes and masc presenting folks as well. i … Continue reading National Coming Out Day 😀
The one decision I would undo, if I could, would be when I decided to take Brandeis up on their offer of a partial assistantship. I would instead have accepted Wyoming's full tuition and fee waiver, assistantship, and the additional travel stipend they offered. I wish, now, that that was the choice I made. But … Continue reading So, you fucked up your life.
Brain fog is not cool at all. I'm reviewing Frege's Begriffsschrift, which is something that I want to be doing. No one's making me; I genuinely like reading dense pieces about logic and philosophy and math. Serious business. But brain fog is no joke. I want to focus, but my brain won't cooperate. I'm just … Continue reading Brain fog
My psydoc gave me Vraylar. It's one of the few things I've never taken before, and that's because it's a fairly new drug. I also know next to nothing about it, aside from the possibility of extrapyramidal symptoms. We'll see. I'm now taking four psych drugs, plus the laxatives to counter constipation side effects, plus … Continue reading A confused mess
I took a chance, and it blew up in my face. It's all right to be sad about that. But I'd rather move forward. It's just that apparently I don't have that sort of control over the situation. My feelings are what they are. I've got to deal with it.