A confused mess

My psydoc gave me Vraylar. It's one of the few things I've never taken before, and that's because it's a fairly new drug. I also know next to nothing about it, aside from the possibility of extrapyramidal symptoms. We'll see. I'm now taking four psych drugs, plus the laxatives to counter constipation side effects, plus … Continue reading A confused mess


Just repress all of it.

Yeah, maybe that's not the best way to manage things. I tried repressing certain things for the last five years or so, and other things for other periods of time, some overlapping, some not. And so, recently, I thought about it and realized that, since refusing to face these things hadn't at all worked out … Continue reading Just repress all of it.

Disability update

...or lack thereof. I had my disability hearing last week. I think it went okay, but my attorney says I won’t have an answer until probably six or eight weeks from now, so I don’t expect to hear anything before about the first week of November, at the earliest. Given the track record they have … Continue reading Disability update


My therapist and I have agreed that a hobby would be good for me. But this seems to be a great example of a typical problem for me: my depression symptoms make me feel, often, so disengaged from literally everything that even things I'd like to enjoy bounce right off. This has some benefits, because … Continue reading Anhedonia

Disability hearing today

I have my hearing today. I'm not sure what's going to happen. My worry is that one of a handful of things will go wrong. I don't exactly look sick, physically, and I look very young, so it does worry me that the ALJ will make a snap judgment about me based on that stuff … Continue reading Disability hearing today

Please help: local mentally ill nonbinary person needs food, meds, etc

I’ve been posting about this for a little while, like the last couple of weeks, but the situation hasn’t gotten any better. A couple of people have donated, and I appreciate them and all the people who have boosted the posts I’ve made. It means a lot to me. But I still need help. Paypal: … Continue reading Please help: local mentally ill nonbinary person needs food, meds, etc

Disabled nonbinary trans person having a situation

Hey, all. As many of you may be aware, I have bipolar disorder. I also am in recovery from an eating disorder and am dealing with the aftermath of a nasty relapse that landed me in the hospital. In March 2014, I applied for disability benefits, and on September 6 of this year, I will … Continue reading Disabled nonbinary trans person having a situation