I had therapy yesterday. We talked about how it's hard for me to finish a task once started. The general idea now is that there are two main reasons: ADHD and fear of failure. ADHD was a known problem, and fear of failure is just so obvious I'm surprised and embarrassed I didn't think of … Continue reading Fear of a Fucked Up Planet
First of all, I don’t know who sent me $100, but thank you so much. I going to try to stretch it as far as possible. For those of you who are not aware of my situation, please check out my donation post: click here. I decided to do NaNoWriMo this year. I have an … Continue reading Couple of updates
Yeah, maybe that's not the best way to manage things. I tried repressing certain things for the last five years or so, and other things for other periods of time, some overlapping, some not. And so, recently, I thought about it and realized that, since refusing to face these things hadn't at all worked out … Continue reading Just repress all of it.
...or lack thereof. I had my disability hearing last week. I think it went okay, but my attorney says I won’t have an answer until probably six or eight weeks from now, so I don’t expect to hear anything before about the first week of November, at the earliest. Given the track record they have … Continue reading Disability update
I’ve been posting about this for a little while, like the last couple of weeks, but the situation hasn’t gotten any better. A couple of people have donated, and I appreciate them and all the people who have boosted the posts I’ve made. It means a lot to me. But I still need help. Paypal: … Continue reading Please help: local mentally ill nonbinary person needs food, meds, etc
Hey, all. As many of you may be aware, I have bipolar disorder. I also am in recovery from an eating disorder and am dealing with the aftermath of a nasty relapse that landed me in the hospital. In March 2014, I applied for disability benefits, and on September 6 of this year, I will … Continue reading Disabled nonbinary trans person having a situation
(Note: In case this needs saying, I can't speak for everyone who has ADHD. I can't even be completely sure that I have it. But it's the latest hypothesis for what ails me, and this is about my experience with it.) I wish I could work on something, just about anything, without feeling the need … Continue reading A lecture, a news feed, an abstract algebra textbook, and a language app: into the wild green yonder of ADHD