My therapist recommended that I read the book When Things Fall Apart by Pema Chodron. I'm about a quarter of the way through it, and I'm feeling it so far. I don't want to be overly optimistic, but I feel like this book could change my life, if I do the work it suggests. Now I'm … Continue reading Why am I like this? (A serious question)
Recovery is so weird. For me, anyway, it's weird just because when I have a slightly better day than average, I have to worry I'm sliding into a manic episode. And then I can think I'm doing okay as far as food, and something will happen and I'll crash right back down where I started. … Continue reading Ideas
anyway it’s national coming out day, apparently. totally snuck up on me.good timing, though. so i’ll take this opportunity to say i’m pretty sure i’m pansexual? leaning 90% toward women and femme presenting people but like. testosterone is a hell of a drug. i’m realizing i’m into dudes and masc presenting folks as well. i … Continue reading National Coming Out Day 😀
First of all, I don’t know who sent me $100, but thank you so much. I going to try to stretch it as far as possible. For those of you who are not aware of my situation, please check out my donation post: click here. I decided to do NaNoWriMo this year. I have an … Continue reading Couple of updates
I was thinking about trauma and dangerous situations, like you do, and I also realized that in connection with some of that I’ve been trying to, in a way, reinvent the fucking wheel. A more accurate way to put it would be to say that I’ve been sliding away from a certain set of coping … Continue reading You’re asking why the pain is always equal but the joy just never spreads around.
The one decision I would undo, if I could, would be when I decided to take Brandeis up on their offer of a partial assistantship. I would instead have accepted Wyoming's full tuition and fee waiver, assistantship, and the additional travel stipend they offered. I wish, now, that that was the choice I made. But … Continue reading So, you fucked up your life.
Brain fog is not cool at all. I'm reviewing Frege's Begriffsschrift, which is something that I want to be doing. No one's making me; I genuinely like reading dense pieces about logic and philosophy and math. Serious business. But brain fog is no joke. I want to focus, but my brain won't cooperate. I'm just … Continue reading Brain fog